RESTLESSNESS, INSOMNIA, CONFUSION, FEAR, STARVATION, DEPRESSION. I'M ALMOST 18 YEARS OLD, I'M KNOW NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL THIS WAY ANYMORE. DON'T TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME BECAUSE HONESTLY, I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND ME. YOU MAY REFER TO ME AS JU. I HAVE A THIRST FOR KNOWLEDGE AND A HUNGER FOR HAPPINESS.